November 2011
1 post
May my depression rest in peace
Ended up in the ER last night because I started to have a meltdown. I feel like nobody is listening to me, nobody understands me, and I don’t even understand myself unfortunately . I was stuck in a small cubed room with only a few chairs…doctors coming in and out of the room to evaluate me. I omitted myself to the hospital last night because my doctor wouldn’t get back to me fast...
June 2010
1 post
May 2010
1 post
Today’s the day where I am going to go to my plastic surgeon to finally see what they’re going to recommend for my body. Yes, I’m getting boob implants to boost up my self image. People tell me I’m going to be sorry, but this is something I want and if anything I always learn from my mistakes. My body, my world, my happiness. Going under the knife is going to be...
April 2010
7 posts
Experience life is what I always tell myself. I’m that girl who will do anything out of nowhere just to see what life would be like and to experience as much as I can. No people I’m not talking about sex, drugs..whatever. My boyfriend just broke up with me and I have sooo much emotional distress I can’t even eat or drink a bit of water without puking my living guts up. His ex...
Boob JOb
Saving money to get a boob job! Need like 2000 more to get them done. 34b turning into 34D. =D Sounds lovely. lol
Honour is learning and growing everyday, and today she actually drank from a straw. I can’t believe she is going to be a year and a half on saturday. Crazy. She really is going to be growing up before my eyes. She learns something new each day…. My sister Heather and her fiance brian moved in with Zachie and I. It’s been interesting and heather..last night blew up over nothing...
February 2010
8 posts
Insecurity gets the best of me and right now my heart seems to hang pretty low when I know in my head that everything is okay. I had a wake up call that scared me more than anything. My Best friend almost left me because he felt that he wasnt right for me. Some of the words he said hurt me, and I am scared that he might leave me even if he said he wants me and honour in hife future. It all has to...
V Day
Valentines day is around the corner, and im itching to know what is going to happen on Sunday. Tomorrow I am going shopping for my lover boy…I have no idea what to get him, you would think I knew what to do. When it comes to romance stuff…it just is not me, I tend to leave it up to the man, but not this V Day…I want to be romantic as well. =]
Babies
this is all I have to say…Oi Vey.
January 2010
17 posts
Today I went horseback riding with my sister and Kimi. It was fun, but scary at the same time. I thought I was going to fall forward off the horse but gripped on to her hair to keep from falling. Heather rides her horse like it’s not a problem, I wish I could be like that. I’m so proud of her, and she has no idea.=]
2,210
dollars vanish from my banking account in into my schooling. It sucked seeing that much go away, but then zach made a point. The money is going to be used for my career in human services. When I have this job I will be making good money…so it’s best to pay for it instead of getting another loan which would put me into debt. So, I helf onto my money tightly for a whole year and now its...
annoyed
the end
Depression
Yo, So, I got this all of a sudden downfall of emotions, and I am not liking one bit of it. I feel tension in the house, and it makes me nervous. Stress is being overpoured into the glass, and I just feel like somehow it gets directed towards me. O.o I get depressed easily…runs in the family…which is no good. I will snap out of it in a few, but seriously I just feel like...
Last night I was going through crying spells. I cry over everything now of days…over happiness and sadness. I am not sure why I am so emotional. I am officially moved into my boyfriend’s house. His sister Kimi helped me clean out my apartment and then once we got back home I hung out with the girls and tried to figure out where to put everything. It’s stacked to the roof, and I...
today
I woke up feeling weird. I feel kind of like…I can’t do anything right for some reason and that I am always being judged to perfection. I will be told that is not the reason but you can’t stop the way you feel. I’m suppose to go on a date tonight, but I’m really not feeling up to it. I just feel like laying in bed….I can’t even fake a smile for anyone. I...
He was there when I needed him as a friend. He was there for me even when I first turned him down He kept up with his persistance, and finally won the girl over that he has been chasing. That girl would be me
My book I am writing
The First Twenty Years Written by: Ashley Danielle Sansom
Chapter one Looking back on my childhood I see a sun kissed redhead who was oblivious to the world around her. That world consisted of a small village in Arenzville, Illinois. There were only 400 people in this town, so as you can see word...
He'll never know
The one I love is laying beside me in bed as my fingers dance across the warm keyboard. Tonight has been a rollercoaster full of emotions and I glance over to just catch a glimpse of him to see how he is doing. He may never know how much I love him, and I will never know how much he loves me; I do know that we do love each other unconditionally. Fate brought us to each other, and we’re...
i think you are a very sweet and giving soul..you are awedome and your daughter is to die for…and I think yo uare exactly what my son has been waithing for…. My boyfriends mother left this in my truth box. I thought this was the sweetest thing someone has said to me for along time. Thank you=]
Yesterday I had an amazing photoshoot with Zach’s sister. I am ordering some prints today and I am so stoked to show everyone. Makes me really want to learn more about photography, so his sis is gonna show me the rope of it all. Life is settling down for me and my daughter. She is such a spunky little butt now, I think she gained some confidence living with a man; it was just the two of us...
December 2009
6 posts
Sweetest Sin
I am almost moved into my boyfriends house. Everything is going smoothly and I couldn’t ask for anything more. 2010 is going to filled with excitement and love. I wonder what is to come in the new year, i know it’s going to wrap me up in warmth. 2009 is going to be put in the the dust; most of it…..we will just remember the time I met my best guy friend. Honour is growing each...
Christmas is tomorrow
I am stoked for it, but for some reason it does not feel like Christmas like it use to be. Maybe it’s because I am older or because I have a child and it’s just not really that exciting for me anymore. I grew out of that and now it’s all about Honour enjoying her gifts from Santa. hahaha.
Sooo, there is this guy..
and we were just friends in the beginning, thats all. Then interest started to build, and then we went on a date. He was the one who asked me, and I said okay, we’ll go on one date…but that’s it. My nerves started to build and build as I anticipated for the day I would see him. We have been stuck to the hip bone since the first date. It’s quite nice to love someone who...
November 2009
2 posts
holy shit, I haven’t been on this thing for ages. Sorry guys, hahah. Anyways…There hasn’t been a lot going on in my life. I have just been laying back waiting for my divorce to be over with. I should be officially divorced in December if not that early January since the Holidays are around the corner. I’m not really excited for Thanksgiving, and I have no idea why. Maybe...
October 2009
14 posts
There once was a time where overwhelming sadness took over my fragile body. I became emotionally weak through a life crisis that involved the one I loved and our little human we created. A time where I was confused and my mind became jumbled with so many thoughts. I wanted something I couldn’t have back and I wanted to fix the mistakes we can never take back. That was a time in the past. Now...
Honour is now one years old and I couldn’t be prouder of the little goober. She’s amazingly smart for her age and incredibly beautiful. She’s walking all the way now, so she’s a bit advanced for her age. She didn’t cry once on her birthday which made me very happy. I decorated the house with pink streamers, silver ribbon and colorful balloons. Her party theme was My...
